Post by rubyrose on Nov 3, 2017 15:52:06 GMT -5
Ok so yesterday started like most days I got up and dressed and started to get ready for school and my parents did realise I was up and was screaming at each other and stuff and I always get the feeling it's about me and the baby and that my dad hates me and I don't now about my step mum I don't now what I should do so I texted my boyfriend to see if I could stay over or something because I just wanted to get out of there he said I could after school but my dad said that I had to be at home and wasn't aloud over to my boyfriend house and I don't now why. Then at school I had sports first and I can't play because I got hurt and I was so bored and then the thought started to come and there was no way to stop then they just got louder and worse I ended up screaming at my self and having a freak out attack and my boyfriend had to come and calme me down. I'm so scared that I won't be able to handle the baby and then when I got home my dad said that I wasn't allowed to do work experience so I'm stuck at home for two weeks with my dad I'm thinking of killing my self but I what to mean my baby girl or running away or something. I'm so lost at the moment.